Getting Rid Of All My Teas and Using Tastebuds For Physical Pain #toxicity #pain #abuse #healingjourney #selfphysicalrehabilitation #livingpositivelyafterchallenges #lorijeanfinnila

I know it sounds crazy, perhaps because I was never a good cook not so much, but while I'm on this physical healing journey, and I didn't realize how much physical healing I needed as I watch the results as I push myself, I've pushed myself to cook a few things that taste good. I feel I need to cook most everything that goes in my mouth for safety and budget reasons. I use a lot of recipes from the web and make changes that work for me. I freeze some of it many times making my life easier during these grueling times of pushing myself physically with my self-rehabilitation for my body and head injuries from abuse that I do.

I cry out loud inside making the agreement with myself to continue to push myself down a journey that appears to never be able to be done. I find myself in a place of only me feeling myself in a linear space. When this happens I know I've arrived for that next yoga session that beats me down but makes me feel more life. I heat up a leftover and feel my body grabbing the sense of delight and I feel no more pain for that moment. It stays with me for a while and longer in my mind feeling I've accomplished what I've needed for that time.

With all that said, with all the problems we have with pesticides and herbicides contaminating our bodies in general, with my condition being fragile from one of the worst injuries I've received from abuse (Hashimoto's from pesticides and/or herbicides entering my body), I feel now I'm horrified by its effects on my body. I can't believe I'm one of the people in those positions where my body is rejecting so many foods and skin care, even regular whole foods, whether organic or not. I feel fright like I feel no one can ever feel at these times. While I struggle with this, my latest is to get rid of all my teas where more than 1 has caused me problems as of recent and caused me to research into the natural toxins in teas. Where I can rinse out the natural toxins in rice that I so desperately need in my pantry to survive being cost friendly I can't rinse out my tea bags or leaves affectively enough. So bye, bye teas and hello to more good cooking. 

I hope you've found this helpful. And if you have these problems leave a comment and let me know. I'd love to know what you do about this.